I have heard that whatever you do on New Year's Day determines how you will spend your whole year. If that's true, I will continue doing laundry, cleaning house and cooking for family. Somehow I don't think I was really going to get out of all that even if I'm not superstitious. I am however an irrepressible optimist and like to think that attitude is what will carry me through this new year. We all have lots to look forward to despite the economic outlook and the fact that we remain a largely one (solid) income family at this time.
My aunt who was hospitalized on Christmas Eve is now awake and my family is positively jubilant about it even though she has a long and painful road to recovery. We are up to it. Her internal organs are fine, her brain is fine and she is no longer on a ventilator. She will have several reconstructive surgeries but she should regain the use of her broken limbs. I want to thank all my blogging friends and Twitter friends who responded with kind encouragement. I am extremely lucky to count you all as my friends.
Tom's brother and his family from Korea have been visiting since the 20th and will be returning home in a couple of days. It's been really fun getting to know the newest member of the family, little Mina, who is only a month younger than my own grandson, Cooper. They played together well and were a constant source of amusement. My MIL #2 is here visiting also and she goes back to Vermont tomorrow.
I've been playing around with a couple of ideas about my blogging for a while and today seems like a good day to make a decision one way or the other. I have really been enjoying some of my online friends efforts at 365/6 Flickr postings but find that I am not such a good photographer and really dislike photos of myself so I don't think I could bring myself to do it. I also have been envious of other knitbloggers who committed to writing a blog post every single day for a year. That might be something I could pull off if I really worked at it. What I would like to know is, those who have done it…was it difficult and was it rewarding and did you feel like you imporved your writing skills or what other revelations did you experience on this journey? I may not do it, but I would like some force to compel/propel me to post more frequently because I really do enjoy the interaction. I admit that I often don't post because I feel so overwhelmed and conflicted and don't want to babble or rant or just indulge in wasting time and cyperspace just to see my words in space. I also know that I have lost a few regular visitors because I have fallen behind so badly in my blogging activites. I wonder if I could carve out a bit more time to write and perhaps spend a tad less time on Twitter. Finding the time seems to be the biggest challenge – Twitter is easy and I really like the immediacy of it. But, it's not exactly blogging. So, I will think on it some more.
About my knitting: I still knit and really need to organize that area of my life a bit more – still working on that Starsky Jr. for Abby and a couple of other UFO's that continue to haunt me. And I have tried really hard to resist the urge to start more projects – at least until I can finish one. Inspiration doesn't seem to be lacking, really, again, it's time that's lacking and I need to address that in some way. What shall I stop doing so I can do more of what I want, hmmm, that may be the essential question. And so this is how I start my new year; desparately wanting more time for me, without my family suffering. If you have any success stores, please share.
And my you all have a Happy New Year and thanks for sticking around!
It's after 11pm on Christmas night, the child is asleep, and I am up alone in a quiet house. This has been a challenging December at our house and it's not over yet. Tom and I both had interviews for new jobs, neither of us got. Abby was sick for her 8th birthday and we had to cancel her party. Two dear friends at work have left the agency, one moved to a new and exciting job at another agency and one retired to an exciting home remodeling project. Both will be sorely missed and whose absence leaves a gaping hole in our web team. My church that I have been a member of for 24 years voted 213/176 to dismiss a much loved and controversial minister essentially splitting our church in two. I am still vexed by this action and feel betrayed and broken-hearted. As my family celebrated the arrival of my brother-in-law and his family visiting from Korea for the holidays, the part of my family that lives in Dallas was gathering to celebrate Christmas last night. Unfortunately a freak accident as they were all leaving for their homes has left my aunt in intensive care in a Dallas hospital and my family reeling from the sudden randomness of the trauma inflicted on both my aunt and my nephew who was also injured. They tell us that her injuries at this time are not life-threatening, but they are life-changing. My nephew's truck rolled over both of them when the parking brake failed. My aunt is 69 years old and has multiple fractures and lacerations and will likely be permanently disfigured on the left side of her face and head. It is still too early to know much else for certain. There is a lot of inflammation that needs to subside before they can consider surgery, so she is being sedated for now and we wait. My husband Tom drove my mother to Dallas this morning. He volunteered and had his bag packed 30 minutes after we got the call last night. We celebrated Christmas today without them as they sat vigil in a hospital 200 miles north.
Last December I lost a childhood friend to cancer and my father-in-law to a lung disease. As painful as that December was, I am feeling almost as vulnerable this year. Though I don't pray, it's not part of my religious practice, I understand some Unitarians do, I do have a Christmas Wish for my aunt Martha, a beloved aunt whom I am very close to, to heal quickly and allow her family who loves her to help her in any way that we can. I also hope that my nephew who assumes too much responsibility for the accident will find peace in the fact that nobody was to blame and that we all love them both very much. May the New Year bring healing for us all.
- I am thankful that my family is in good health
- I am thankful I have a job – I have lived through tough econimic times when I was not as securely employed (like the 1980's) and it makes a difference.
- I am thankful Tom got his degree and even though he still doesn't have a full time teaching contract yet, he is subbing regularly and get this…he doesn't hate it. That's big.
- I am thankful for all my friends, whether they are local or distant or even whether I have ever met them in person or not, they make being a mere human being bearable.
- I am thankful that my mom lives nearby now and that she is involved in our lives and she is in a safer place.
- I am thankful for all the relatives that don't live near us, I just wish they did. (Hear that Martha, Laurie, Bart?)
- I am thankful that we we do not have an Adjustable Rate Mortgage on our home. Boy, am I thankful.
- I am thankful that our cars keep running, most of the time, even though they are 10 years old. If they can just hang in there a little longer.
- I am so very thankful that the next president of this country is a visionary, reasonable, uncommon man who I believe will save us all.
- I am thankful that the winters in Texas are not any worse than they are because I am convinced I would freeze to death if it was any colder for any longer.
- I am thankful for my husband, Tom because after ten years of marriage, even though he's a little surly sometimes and he would rather live in the city, he doesn't leave me and he is the best father I have ever known. Did I mention that he's been married to me for 10 years? That's really big.
- I am thankful that my oldest daughter, Kandis has grown up to be a wonderful wife, mother, friend and daughter. I am also thankful that she found a wonderful husband, Rob and that they gave me a wonderful grandson, Cooper!
Now, let's all eat turkey and pie and take naps and shop (modestly).